Christopher Brown

Its all over now.
Do I feel relieved? No, not really.
Did I just sit for an exam? Wow, I don't remember much.

It was all so fast. My mind was completely blank. I remember feeling really nervous and just playing my violin and sweating. Stuttering "sorry" to Mr. Christopher Brown (my examiner) so many times, I think I did alright. Lets just hope for best, and be ready for the worst. :D

Even though I wasn't a Henry today, I will be some day. I really hope so, I'll do my best. Now, I'm violin-teacher-less. HAHAA! No matter with or without a teacher, I, Khoo Tze Yun will play my violin into the future! :D

I really hope my enthusiasm will last forever.
Fingers crossed.

Ty.

Inspiration

Henry Lau. One of Super Junior M.

My violin inspiration. He is has mad violin skills and he's hot cute. ;D

I wanna be like him one day.
And I really hope that "one day" will be tomorrow. HAHH!
Good luck to me any-who. May Lady Luck be shining upon me.

Ty.

Overdosed

Crap.
A few more hours and its Monday, the day I go back to school. Yay.... -.-

Damn it.
I didn't even enjoy my last day much. Damn that award show for replacing my show tonight. And damn myself for watching 孙自佑 so much on youtube. He is totally awesome. But too much of anything is bad for anybody. I know that, but yet I still did it. I should have stopped at the second, after I got all happy and bouncy. Now, I feel like I'm having a hangover. My head is so heavy now. Damn. Overdosed.

Tomorrow I have to go to school. Damn.
The day after tomorrow I have violin exam. DAMN.

I feel like sleeping. But I don't think I'll be able to sleep.
I feel like vomitting, that I think I'll be able to do.
But I have to be like Ted, vomit free since '93. HAHAA.

Gone away are the golden days.
Just a page in my diary.

Ty.

Damnable bubble

Holidays are over. Wow.

I did not go out with my friends at all this holiday meaning I didn't spend any money. Great round of applause for me. :D Mostly, I just spend time with my family and my violin this holiday. I exercised this holiday too. Swam in my new swimming costume and went to the gym. Another great round of applause for me. :D But, it was fun, this holiday.

School is a major bore for me this year. I just can't connect. I feel out of the bubble, like an alien, I want to join in the crowd in my class, to join in the laughter. But I can't. The bubble is like made out of metal, a see-through type of metal. No matter how many times I ram my body into the bubble, I just can't penetrate it. It is one strong bubble. As time pass, I just grew tired. So, I just sit and stare at the other side. They look so happy. I don't want to feel like that. I don't wanna go back to school.

Life is so lifeless. I don't mind migrating, seriously, if our family gets the green card lottery thing. I think I might even want to migrate.

I am not happy.
Somehow, I'm not.
I feel empty. Fill me up please.

It's all coming back to me now.

Black and White.







What to say... what to say....
School exams might be over and it might be the season to be jolly. But, I'm still under a lot of pressure. Violin exam is in a fortnight, Take the stage auditions is on the day after tomorrow, piano exam is next month and I still need to make time to socialize. AND, I have Interact stuff to do.

Stress stress stress.

Let's not talk about that. Let us all think happy thoughts. Like: Unicorns and rainbow monkeys! :D I wish I had a rainbow monkey. I'd call him Baboon! Awwww. :)

My parents came back from US of A. They bought a hell load of stuff. And apparently I've grown since my parents were gone. I'm taller than my mama now. Ain't that amazing? ;D My mama says I'm fatter too. YAY! Lol.

Lalalallalalaaalalllalallalalallalalalalalallaallalalalalal

I seem to have run out of things to say.
Oh yeah, screw sentimental value.

:D

14 + year gap. ):

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I feel sad yet happy on this day. Your music has accompanied me through many a times in my life, no matter sad or happy. You were always there. I really wanna thank you for that. Your music really does weave dreams & capture life. Every single time I hear your songs, my heart thumps louder and I feel so touched. It speaks to me. I hope you'll have a great year, great birthday and etc. I really do hope you get the best male artist award. (:

God bless you, JJ Lin Jun Jie. ♥

On this day, it is also Earth day, I can imagine your face only illuminated by candles on your cake. I can hear the chatter of people surrounding you. Your dimples are seen on your smiling face.

Hope you have an awesome birthday.
You're my inspiration. :]

Ty.

26/03/2009

Am I the same girl in this pic? :/

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I haven't been blogging lately. I'm so tired. I don't know what to write at all. Some stuff I wanna let out, but don't know how to hide the truth while expressing myself. So, I was just lazy to think so much. And I just laid in bed, talking to the sky. To whoever that is listening up there.
Thanks for listening. Everything is alright now. (:

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JJ ♥

Tomorrow is a big day. A day I've been so hyped up about since march started. But now, as I feel time creeping by, I feel kinda sad. I hope this day would just skip, never happen. This way you won't grow older, and I would have a chance of catching up. I know its kinda stupid. I don't even personally know you, even if I feel like I do... I laugh at myself. HAHAHA. :/


Ty.