De ja vu.

And now, I'm truly alone.

I didn't say I wouldn't tell her.
I just wasn't ready. It wasn't the right moment.
But, no matter what, I was going to tell her.
Damn.

*rubbing my left knee*
Oh magic knee, do your magic now!
Make everything alright.

Please.

Ty.

Christopher Brown

Its all over now.
Do I feel relieved? No, not really.
Did I just sit for an exam? Wow, I don't remember much.

It was all so fast. My mind was completely blank. I remember feeling really nervous and just playing my violin and sweating. Stuttering "sorry" to Mr. Christopher Brown (my examiner) so many times, I think I did alright. Lets just hope for best, and be ready for the worst. :D

Even though I wasn't a Henry today, I will be some day. I really hope so, I'll do my best. Now, I'm violin-teacher-less. HAHAA! No matter with or without a teacher, I, Khoo Tze Yun will play my violin into the future! :D

I really hope my enthusiasm will last forever.
Fingers crossed.

Ty.

Inspiration

Henry Lau. One of Super Junior M.

My violin inspiration. He is has mad violin skills and he's hot cute. ;D

I wanna be like him one day.
And I really hope that "one day" will be tomorrow. HAHH!
Good luck to me any-who. May Lady Luck be shining upon me.

Ty.

Overdosed

Crap.
A few more hours and its Monday, the day I go back to school. Yay.... -.-

Damn it.
I didn't even enjoy my last day much. Damn that award show for replacing my show tonight. And damn myself for watching 孙自佑 so much on youtube. He is totally awesome. But too much of anything is bad for anybody. I know that, but yet I still did it. I should have stopped at the second, after I got all happy and bouncy. Now, I feel like I'm having a hangover. My head is so heavy now. Damn. Overdosed.

Tomorrow I have to go to school. Damn.
The day after tomorrow I have violin exam. DAMN.

I feel like sleeping. But I don't think I'll be able to sleep.
I feel like vomitting, that I think I'll be able to do.
But I have to be like Ted, vomit free since '93. HAHAA.

Gone away are the golden days.
Just a page in my diary.

Ty.

Damnable bubble

Holidays are over. Wow.

I did not go out with my friends at all this holiday meaning I didn't spend any money. Great round of applause for me. :D Mostly, I just spend time with my family and my violin this holiday. I exercised this holiday too. Swam in my new swimming costume and went to the gym. Another great round of applause for me. :D But, it was fun, this holiday.

School is a major bore for me this year. I just can't connect. I feel out of the bubble, like an alien, I want to join in the crowd in my class, to join in the laughter. But I can't. The bubble is like made out of metal, a see-through type of metal. No matter how many times I ram my body into the bubble, I just can't penetrate it. It is one strong bubble. As time pass, I just grew tired. So, I just sit and stare at the other side. They look so happy. I don't want to feel like that. I don't wanna go back to school.

Life is so lifeless. I don't mind migrating, seriously, if our family gets the green card lottery thing. I think I might even want to migrate.

I am not happy.
Somehow, I'm not.
I feel empty. Fill me up please.

It's all coming back to me now.

Black and White.







What to say... what to say....
School exams might be over and it might be the season to be jolly. But, I'm still under a lot of pressure. Violin exam is in a fortnight, Take the stage auditions is on the day after tomorrow, piano exam is next month and I still need to make time to socialize. AND, I have Interact stuff to do.

Stress stress stress.

Let's not talk about that. Let us all think happy thoughts. Like: Unicorns and rainbow monkeys! :D I wish I had a rainbow monkey. I'd call him Baboon! Awwww. :)

My parents came back from US of A. They bought a hell load of stuff. And apparently I've grown since my parents were gone. I'm taller than my mama now. Ain't that amazing? ;D My mama says I'm fatter too. YAY! Lol.

Lalalallalalaaalalllalallalalallalalalalalallaallalalalalal

I seem to have run out of things to say.
Oh yeah, screw sentimental value.

:D