Letting go.

最后的疼爱是手放开 -- A more meaningful translation is "the last bit of affection is letting go of your hands".
[Line from Sam Lee Sheng Jie's 手放开]

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My day started with my dad coming to my room at 8.30 am, saying: "Tze Yun, you wanna go school a not?" Once I heard that, the me thats full of school spirit woke up straight away. Even sleep couldn't tempt me to not go to school. I changed into my Hang Tuah shirt; stuffed my uniform and cards into my bag; put rm5, my phone and tissue into my pocket; ate a little then I was in the car, on my way to school. On the way, my dad told me the me-staying-in-school-til-school-ends-at-5.30pm plan, all I did was just nod and smile nod and smile. When I reached school, my fellow Interacters (Charlene/Madeline/Yi Hua/Boss Zhi Ying/Vice Ming... ...) was already there. The gardening project changed into a store cleaning project due to the rain. So, we helped clean a little. Then, I received a sms from Chun Kit out of the blue to go to court 2 because there is a match and Skill Fire is there waiting for us. I straight away assumed that its the interclass competition qualifier match changing location to court 2, so my friends and I said bye bye to the Interacters and walked to court 2. When we reached there, Chun Kit had the nerve to ask me what I was doing there. (WTF, he was the one that ask me to go right? LOL) So, I told him he was the one who smsed me to come. Then, he started whacking his forehead. Apparently, Me and YauShen's number is similar and Chun Kit made a mistake. LOL. He thought I was YauShen, just because my number ends with 7878 and YauShen's number ends with 7378. Its really funny weihh. He thought I was YauShen. LOOOOL! The more I think about it, the funnier it gets. XD And the match that was going on is not the interclass competition so my friends and I bolted out of there, back to school. Played a little of Cho Dai Di at school. Then, went to Charlene's house to get ready for school while she get ready to go to Pyramid with the Ashleys. (All of them ditch me go shopping for make-up. Sad, right?) Hope they had a great make-up time. :D

Attendence was extremely extremely "full of suckness" (Kambing XD). Only 17 students turned up for the whole of form 2. I was the only girl that came from Pi weihh. And Sigma almost broke our most attendence on Saturday classes record since last year. But, Joel came at the last minute with us cheering him in. So, technically our record haven't broke, but its tied. We woudn't be so close to being beaten if the scout camp wasn't being held man. But, no matter what, we're still on top. RAWR! :O

All classes mix into 1 and followed Sigma's timetable, so got PJ! Waliao, we super super dee duper lucky. Lol. Most teachers didn't care what we were doing so we played cards played cards and played some more cards - recess - PJ! - Played cards. We played basketball during PJ, damn damn damn damn long never play ball already so super fun. I was super kai. Keep masuk-ing only. After I shoot in 3 balls in a row, I kept shouting: "I'm a shooter! I'm a shooter!" while jumping around. Lol. Joel keep making fun of me. XD My stamina drop like shit. Ishh. Need to do something about it. I felt so good after that game weihh. GG! XD

After school, Kyle, Joel, Zheng Hao and I walked down the street together and chit chat. I went to my grandma's house and waited for my dad. My dad came and fetch me home. Watched a little tv and now here I am blogging. Home alone with my brother. Parents have went out for a dinner. So, thats my day today. :D


*Sigh of relief* I feel so good today. Its a great awesome day. I love Saturday replacement classes. A sense of peace just overwhelms me. No drama. No tension. Just this tickly prickling awesome feeling. I just love it. Its always awesome. Its a great thing that so many people are missing out. I'm not being selfish. Cause if everyone came, it wouldn't be the same. And no one would feel this.
I wonder how's the graduation thingy at Lick Hung is going. I didn't go. Lick Hung is dropping. ]:

ps: Migration to USA? O.O

I know you missed me

HELLO PEOPLE!
This is the first time I've never wrote my blog for so long. Lol. Paiseh. I was lazy to update at first then started playing Restaurant City on facebook that lagged my computer like stuff that lagged computers do and I couldn't update. But no worries, people, nothing much happened.

I pretty much just wake up, shower, eat, go school, play cho dai di, hide cards from teachers, go home, eat, restaurant city, shower, brush teeth and sleep every day. LOL! Do I sound like I don't have a life? Well, I do. Thats just a rough summary on what I do everyday. Highlights from 22nd to 29th: 2 deck of my cards, 1 deck of Yat Haw's cards and 6 decks from 2 Theta kena rampas (LOL) and Football interclass competition (Watched a few games, understood more of football. 3.142! :D) and went out with class people, watched 'Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs'(Funny). Nothing else. It sounds sien, but its awesome. Playing cards with my class people is damn funny laaa. Make me laugh like someone that kena laughing gas. They keep singing 'Sorry sorry' by Super junior and doing the 'Look! A bird!' thingy. And keep doing the Baby Brent's 'Uh-oh'. Funny weihh. XD Oh, plus we keep doing Yat Haw's elbow thingy. XD And when teachers pass by, we keep cards and pretend play 'Chikupa' that we changed to 'Chickenbird'. XD FUNNY! I'm gonna miss this class weihh. (:

Well, I have no idea what I'm writing here. Just write for an update. Lol. Going to school to play cho dai di soon. I 'm still bringing cards. I ain't scared. XD

Ps: Happy Birthday Lying Assasin. (:
Ps: I GOT PERCY JACKSON!
ps: School spirit.

Life is about creating something out of nothing - JJ Lin <3

School was pretty dang nice. Super relax. Just hang with friends and get test results.

Scores

• English - 78
• Bm - 81
• Geo - 70
• Sejarah - 67
• Chinese - 71
• Science - 74

2As only. Haih. Fingers crossed for the rest of my subjects. Hope I don't get any Cs. ;P

Today something great happened. It made school so much better. Just that line and it made my day. Wanna know what happened? Don't wanna tell you. :D (JasonT) Speaking of Jason, he deleted his blog. ): Rest in peace, jasontewjunxien.blogspot.com.

Happy Birthday to Nicole Choong Yie Hern aka COLE COLE!
Ain't she cute? :D She's smart, sporty and funny too.
She always lift my spirits up with her lame-ness. XD
She's currently at Beijing. Hope she's having an awesome time.
Happy birthday weih youuuu! (:
'I am a small small small small birddddd~'
Our lame lame song. CoTze. *hearts*

Chao.

All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth? :]

I'm bored.
So I'm writing my Christmas list! Yay for Christmas. =D

Stuff I want

1. Awesome exam results in a good way
2. Cool random T-shirts/ Clothes
3. JJ's first 4 original albums + the extra <3
4. That T-shirt from SMUDGEstore <3
5. Dorky, thick framed specs
6. The hand thingy thats like a glove but not exactly a glove
7. Thin thin type punya hair band
8. Acoustic guitar (Love my guitar now, but acoustic is just way cool)
9. A magical cream that can clear my pimples immediately (XD)
10. World Peace! :]

K.O.
I'm out. :D

Every day, I hear my parents talk about my brother's future. His colleges and stuff. One day, its gonna be my turn. Merely 3 more years. The me right now is so unsure of myself, I don't know what to do, where to go. Time flies. I'm afraid I won't be ready when the time is right. Time waits for no one. And am I no one? In this case, sadly, no. I'm Khoo Tze Yun, a somebody. How I wish I'm no one whom time stops and wait for.

I feel so pressured.The burden of my future is upon my shoulders. Any grown woman I pass by in the street could be me one day. That statement opens up a lot of possibilities and wonders even, but it also opens up a lot of bad stuff; an apocalypse of my life. One wrong move, one wrong decision and its over. I've let the demons rise and ruin my oh so bright future and turn it to one oh so dark. I could turn out to be an icon in Malaysian history, my name would be in history books and future students all over the world would try to memorize my painfully hard name for a history test and go 'Why must she have such a complicated name?'. Or I could turn out to be the battered old lady that begs for money kopitiam after kopitiam that most people will look at with disgust. Two totally different lifestyles and scenerios that could totally happen. And I fear the latter would come true.

The problem is that I have so many options. Its not really a problem. It a advantage of a sort that makes me stress out. When I go to my parents and ask them :'What should I do?' They just tell me :'Whatever interests you, dear.' Even JJ, he always says :'The choice is yours.' When I want some one to just force me to do something, no one does. They give me freedom. Go figure. :S

Motherhood is one thing I'm absolutely positively sure of. But I don't expect to rely on my husband for food, shelter and everything. I'm gonna be a indepedent yet dependent woman. ARGHH. Whatev. I should think less. Thinking just makes people go nails.

If what I've heard is true, I'm disappointed in you.

Tremendously so. I can't be able to even look at you anymore.

*sighs deeply*

*whispers* Please be false. 

The long awaited pictures!

The birthday pictures! :D
Sorry for the wait, didn't know how to transfer the photos from the camera. I'm a noob. ;P
Anyways, I'm not sure how to arrange the pics and sstuff. Another point that proves I'm a noob. Sad. Lol.
Anyways, the top photo is how my cake looks like from the top. I know, ugly sial. XD The last photo random, but follow instructions people, APPLAUD! The middle photo is the best picture of the day. So sweet right? And just look how my beloved Khoo Mama and Khoo Koko are smiling. Makes me wanna smile too. :D

ps: Friends, my brother hot laaaa! XD

Scream at the top of your lungs

Yesterday was the last day of exams! :O
Scream people scream. Scream your internal organs out. ;D
My classmates and I have done our part in screaming. A bunch of my guy classmates screamed super high pitch. Bunch of girly guys. :D

Now its time for our 5 day deepavali holiday.
I know, what you non-SU-ians are thinking: 'Holidays again?! Your school rocks.'
To tell you the truth, not really. I'm so bored of holidays. Right now, almost every week there is a holiday. I'm so sick of holidays.

Btw, I baked a cake yesterday night! I feel so accomplished. :D
It was my first time ever baking, so it was freaky ugly. ;P
Will post pics when I load it up yaa. (:
For the success of my first cake, I'd like to thank 3 people.

1. ASHLEY SEOW for the recipe.
2. KHOO MAMA for guiding my in the kitchen.
3. ZHENG HAO for the cocoa powder.
THANK YOUUU. (:

ps: Happy Birthday Khoo Koko. (:
ps: CHOO XINJUN! Mentioned. Congratz. ;D
ps: Wish I was at the SMG X Devilock party in Singapore. ):

Can you lift me up?

I knew that if I told them, they'll scold me and criticize me.
Keep going on and on. Making me feel like shit.
But, I just have to tell them.
In the end, they did all that.

I KNOW I SHOULD HAVE WORE A BLEEDING BLOODY WATCH.

Ish. -___-

Forget about it. What happened happened. There's no point wallowing in that incident. Well, I did wallow a little in school. Thanks Nefissa and Ashley for being there. (:

Let's put the past aside, continue on with the present and think of the future.
*thinks* OMG, I see UFOes all over the place. :O
Random. XD
Serious now. Tomorrow is the last day of exams! Sad, I know. :D
I can't wait to get back all my results. :3

~Eh eh there's nothing else I can say.

ps: Everybody stay strong, its almost over.

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I feel angry today.

The End.

Memories

Yo.
Yesterday, I went back to Lick Hung for their family. Many old students like myself came back.It was a great opportunity to catch up with old friends. Many of my old classmates didn't come back which was a big bummer. But, my circle of old friends isn't just my classmates. So, I still got to catch up with old friends. (:

Most importantly, I got to catch up with my bestest best friend from primary, Khoo Mei Xin. Her & I, together. Thats how it was supposed to be. She just made me smile. Being with her, made me realize what I've been missing all along. I wished that I could've been there. I wish I could be the person that can't see how you look different because I'm so used to seeing you every day. How I missed you. <3

Actually, to be honest, I think my Lick Hung memories are finally slipping away from me. It has been 2 years, some stuff are just fading away. All of us, exLick Hung-ians have our own lives now. Different group of friends. We've all moved on. Parted ways. And Lick Hung just will be a faraway memory.

:]

ps: I missed all of you, but its time to let go.

Irreplaceable

Happy Birthday to my one and only mama ♥
Try to guess which one is her in the photo above.
Its pretty obvious right? :D
She's the one that shines with a beauty no one can the deny.
She's the one looking smashing in those sunglasses.
If you guessed wrong, all I can say is:
What's wrong with you?! XD

Dear mama,
you've scolded me; whacked me; pinched me; etc.
Without doubt, I have occasionally hated you.
C'mon, every child has their moment of hatred for their parents.
But you've also cared for me; loved me; etc.
For that, I love you with all my heart and soul.
And love has overcame my hate.
I realize all that you've done for me is with good intentions, I think. Lol.
So, thank you.
I'm sorry if I've been a brat.
I love you.
No one could have raised me better.
Look at me, I'm awesome. XD

Thank you, Ah Ma!
For giving birth to my mama.
♥

Going for special seafood dinner tonight.

:]

Aim and FIRE!

:D

Hey!

I went to school today, full of fear.
Afraid that nobody would appear.
But, when I arrived and saw Kyle,
All of those doubts seem to disappear.

Then, Kyle and I walked about.
Looking for other people; tall or stout.
Surrounded by PMR silence, we were afraid.
But, continued on with our parade.

We reached the hall, and heard shouts of our names.
We turned and saw Ashley and Charlene - Hallelujah, they came!

-I can't write in rhyme for this whole fricking post. I'll write it on a piece of paper, then post it up if I ever finished it. I'll continue using my normal writing style.

Anyways, where was I?
Oh right. Met up with AshS and Charlene at the hall, and got my Cocoa powder from Zheng Hao who was also at the hall. Speaking of that, THANK YOU SO MUCH KENG ZHENG HAO! :O *cough cough*

Let's continue. We played a bit of cho dai di. (I brought cards!) Then, Mr Ang and Pn Yeoh came, we hid the cards away just in time. :D Then, they counted attendence for today's classes that supposed to come today: 2S, 2P & 2T. PI WON! WOOTS! Like always. Thats how we are, rajin/super school spirited. The attendence was like this: 2P(12), 2T(7), 2S(6). Total: 25. I think thats the way it was laa. Not sure. Some students came late, so who knows? But the main thing is, Pi got the most attendence. XD Since there were so few students, all 3 classes mixed and followed our timetable. According to Pn. Yeoh, she picked our timetable because got double period of her. LOL.

Most teachers didn't care much and let us do whatever we want which was play cards. We're cardholics. XD We taught Razali & Kyle & Bharat how to play cho dai di. And we played speed too. Funny like kao! I got super ganas when playing speed with Zheng Hao and according to Razali and Kyle, punched them. XD Sorry. Was too into the game. I super kia su. XD And for reasons unknown to anybody but himself, Kyle kept saying 'Terpeda'. And it kinda become a thing, everyone was saying it. It was so funny. No matter what the situation, Kyle will say 'Terpeda'. XD Damn funny. Had major fun. All those people that didn't come, feel the guilt, be jealous. XD

The only 2 teachers that taught was Pn Lee Tzyy Shiang & Pn Yeoh. Pn Lee was just revising linear equations. The memorable lesson was Pn Yeoh's. She was surprisingly funny. Her lesson was fun. She gave us a quiz; guys vs girls. Girls won. Obviously, girls is the better gender. ;P Learned a lot, like sharks is the only fish that can blink both eyes at the same time/ Elephants can't jump/ National flower of England is Rose/ National flower of Italy is Lily/ etc. It was so cool. ;D

After all that, I walked to my grandma's house with Zheng Hao, Kyle & Nefissa. It was so nice. Just walking with them. Wish I could walk to my grandma's house everyday after school. Can't describe it much in words. Its beyond words.

Well, pretty much just enjoyed today. No drama. Plain nice. (:

Oh, btw, found out my bm paper 1 score, english paper 2 score & chinese score today. I'm pretty disappointed. I know, I have no reason to be disappointed. My scores are pretty good. But, I'll never be happy until I've reached perfection. I'll never be good enough for myself. Never reach the bar so freakishly high up. ):
Scores: Chinese- 71; Bm 1- 28/40; Bi 2- 39/50

Moving on.
I'm supposed to be baking a cake at this very moment. But, my mama doesn't want to be cleaning up the mess I will make in the kitchen on her birthday - tomorrow. She wants a durian cake that is bought. My mama and her durians. -__- No worries though, Zheng Hao's cocoa powder will not be wasted, I will still bake! This is just a minor setback, a postponement. I will bake and use that cocoa powder, next week - my brother's birthday. See how much I love my brother. XD

Thats it. Chao.

ps: TERPEDA! XD
ps: Thought I could today. =x

(:

Nothing much to say.
Just wanted to say....

Happy Birthday Horikita Maki!
You're an totally awesome actress! :]



And, hope you form 3s had fun arranging the tables today.
Luck. I'll be praying for you guys tomorrow and the day after that and.... For the whole Pmr laa.

:]

I'm immune to you now

Yo.
To keep it simple, exams were a piece of cake today. Except chinese.
Don't really wanna talk about it. Ishh.

I was conteng-ing on my english paper today. Start writing crap.
Wrote the lyrics to my chicken song that I made last night:

I'm a lousy chicken,
That goes POK POK.
Flapping my wings, wishing I could fly.
Fly up to your face and peck out your eyes.

I sang it to Ashley, Charlene and Nefissa.
Ashley said :'What a violent chicken.'
Charlene just laughed.
;P

I also thought about the storyline of the book/story I plan to write. After thinking real hard, I came up with the brilliant idea of writing about nothing. Every successful writer wrote about something which makes me writing nothing special. Even though technically I'll be writing something as long as I'm writing something, even if I'm writing something about nothing. Can you keep up? HAHH. (:

I finally caught a glimpse of the moon tonight;
Hiding behind those clouds.
It was so mysterious, so beautiful.

You can't break a broken heart.
No damage you can do now,
I'm immune to you now.
You can't break a broken heart.
-Kate Voegele

ps: Its my secret. Again, I say, I'll tell you guys when I tell you guys.
ps: STOP LAUGHING AT MY HAIR. XD
ps: Buzzer beat. <3

Streak broken

People of the world!
Did you miss me? I missed one day of blogging. My streak broken. Its a sad sad situation.
XD

Anyways, the last two days of exams was pretty easy. I feel like I have felt all pressured for final exams for absolutely nothing, mid terms were way way WAY harder. After I said this, I'm afraid that I've triggered something and the next exam is gonna be way way way WAY hard. You know, like the way someone in a movie says: 'What else could go wrong?' and fate will prove to him/her that it could go wrong, way way WAY wrong that kind of thing. I've said 'way' 7 times in this paragraph. LOL. But how hard can it get? All the subjective papers are over. Hehh. (:

And, yesterday my family welcomed a new member of the family! :D
No, my mama did not give birth to a baby. Even though I wish she had. I want a baby brother. Hone my skills for being a mother in the future. HAHA. XD
The member we welcomed, is not a living creature. To be exact, its a new dining table.
HAH! Didn't see that coming, did you? XD
Anyways, its this new round marble table. Its beautiful. It has a lazy susan which is so awesomely cool. Lol. FYI: A lazy susan is the round thingy that you can turn around that is at the middle of the table. (:

Thats pretty much it.
Well, Happy Mooncake Festival.

ps: Sydney White was not what I'd expected. The dorks ruled though. Love all 7 of 'em. Adorkable. I rate the movie 6/10.

If faith permits (:

Baby Teck Shern!
Isn't he cute? :D
*This picture is taken a long time ago. XD

Rawr! Its 1st October! Ngam ngam a few minutes after midnight. :D
This post is dedicated to Leon Lim Teck Shern!
Happy 15th Birthday awesomelicious dude! :]

I've known you for 1 year+ now, and I have great memories with you.
You're a great guy, you know that, right? Of course you do. XD
Anyways, I can't imagine my life without you.
You have left a impact in my life. Left a footprint or something.
I'm glad that I sent you that friendster friend request. HAHA. XD
You're my sidekick, the evil pillow pillower.
You're my fellow car, PRO781.
The 8th wonder of the world.
You're my higglicious town hero.

(:

Someone special who could it be? This job's to big for you and me.
We need some help but never fear oh. This looks like a job for a higgly town hero.

Holy unzipped zip -Leon Lim Teck Shern

Goodniggulicious.

ps: Happy birthday China. XD
ps: Ts, if you're reading this. Don't get all perasan. XD And compare the two birthday wishes. XD